"My Mind" consists of a collection of works I made while experiencing a manic episode that later led to my diagnosis of Cyclothymia (a form of Bipolar Disorder). They are directly inspired by hallucinations and delusions that I experienced at the time.
"I'm Good" depicts the hallucination I named 'Vessel'. In times when I would disassociate, I felt as if I was watching the world from behind me and that my real eyes were covered.
A part of my experience of Cyclothymia involves OCD characteristics. For me, the repetition of the numbers 1 and 2 was an intense compulsion. This would be repeated over and over again out loud or in my mind. The compulsion was so strong and pressing that it felt 'loud' in my head, hence "It's Loud in Here."
Eyes were a recurrent theme in my episode. I believed that there were eyes within me. I wanted them out. One way that I was able to release the pressure of the eyes was to draw what I wanted to do to remove them.
This piece was made after an episode in the canteen of my university. I had become convinced that there were eyes in me and underneath my skin. Again, much like the previous Eye piece, drawing this allowed me to relieve some of the pressure they caused.
